Wednesday, March 28, 2018

you never get a second chance to make a first impression


Boss Finley:
A Scottish surname​ derived from the Gaelic name Fionnlagh, meaning "fair warrior."
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That’s interesting because he is more like the opposite. He’s a rich, possessive, selfish, control freak (bossy if you will), and liar. He’s a jerk that only cares for himself and does whatever he wants for his selfish desires. He is in control of everything in this small town. It's crazy! Though the text says that the way he looks at Heavenly is totally non romantic, I was still very creeped out for a fictional character. Especially once you learn Heavenly is a spitting image of her mother whom Boss Finley lost. She is also young and his daughter! Also, he has a lot of say in her life. Too much for a young adult. (I know this time period it is more common but the way he does it is just too much for comfort) He is very traditional. He even tried to set Heavenly with a super old, rich guy. Instead of allowing her, oh I don't know, marrying the guy she loves. But yeah whatever, right? It’s annoying how much he cares about his daughter’s image while he has a mistress and is spending so much money on everyone else but his family. I hate how he has a mistress but then wants his daughter to present herself as pure and innocent even though she is no longer a virgin. He wants to make decisions for everyone and he does it as he pleases. He didn't want Heavenly to marry the man she loved. He is threatening her to do something she doesn't want to. He asks her how she wants Chance to disappear.  He doesn't even let Heavenly receive a phone call. Then he has a mistress whom he pretends he doesn’t know who they are talking about when questioned about it.


  
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Tom Junior
He seems like he doesn't get a lot of his father’s approval/attention. Maybe he did it for his attention to see if Boss would do anything. I don't really like him.  I feel like his dad is more focused on his daughter than his son. That's never good parenting. Also he doesn't have a good first impression as the only way he could pass his classes was by his father paying for the answers to tests. Is that the way he could have passed his classes. So he does not have a good first impression either. Overall he came off as a failure. He seems too dependent on his dad and acts so that his father keeps him around. His father doesn't seem to care about him too much because he doesn't hold back his temper/crude towards him (when Boss says he had to pay for the answers) and then Boss is super happy to see that his daughter entered.

Aunt Nonnie
So far she has a very small role but it is fairly significant as it leads you to some questions. I don't really have an opinion on her character. She is trying to be nice by warning Chance to leave before it gets ugly. I thought that was cool but also what is the real reasoning behind that. Boss Finley suggests some romantic reasons. My initial impression was that that was too nice of her to do. Everyone else seems to side with Boss Finley and follow his every command so it was also pretty cool that she would do something that would go against/cross Boss Finley. I am curious to see how else of a role she might have further on.

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Heavenly

The name heavenly has a very divine connotation to it. She seems kind. From the start Boss Finley takes advantage of that. She tells him she can't talk right now and yet Boss insists, instead of asking her what's wrong or postponing the conversation for another time. She repeatedly tells him she wants to live her life, with Chance Wayne, but her dad won’t let her. He just doesn't like him (possibly because he doesn't have money which is shallow). She just loves Chance. I feel kind of bad for her because she can't live her life. If only she knew the real reason for Chance's return to St. Cloud. If only Chance knew about Heavenly's feelings. And now her father is threatening her (forbidding her to be with him) and she must come to a decision. She also seemed like she was forced into a "whore's procedure." Totally whore-able (haha, get it?) of her father to push her towards that decision. At least it comes off that he did so. (Also the way Boss Finley does mention that ugh). Overall, my first impression of her is mostly pitiful. Someone else is dictating her life!! We only have one life and we shouldn't let one person take over it. (I know society was more patriarchal back then so she didn't have much of a choice) So, what a shame.
   

Thursday, March 22, 2018

   

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“Princess I didn't think you’d have these attacks anymore. I thought that having me to protect you would stop these attacks of panic.”


Well Chance is saying how he wants to get his old girlfriend back but he just slept with some girl. Second he doesn't really want to say that that's the reason he's back. He doesn't even know how his mother died. The fact that he knew she was sick but never checked on her until now says a lot. All he is focused on is becoming famous and being with Heavenly. It is kind of scary the means he is willing to go to in order to do this. In short, he is a desperate and selfish man. He is selling his body to make a living as he couldn’t make it big in Hollywood. It’s just his luck that he met Alexandra del Lago in a cabana. That's as far as his luck runs, though. 
The girl he came back for is going to get married and he found out through the groom. Nothing is working for him. He’s not favorite character but I understand why he is acting this way. However, it doesn't excuse his behavior.
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He took advantage of Princess’ vulnerability and that is uncalled for. He blackmails her and it seems to be very planned as he has a recorder handy. I found it interesting he was ready for it. I think he’s taking a huge risk (chance, if you will) by blackmailing Princess.
The last thing Alexandra (or anyone, really) wants is being arrested for smuggling drugs into the country. Chance does this for fame. I think that’s a lousy move. (Don't be a snitch) Alexandra is admitting her insecurities to him and all he can focus on is himself! He makes it worse too. He says, “You put on a good deal of weight after that disappointment you had last month.” True or not, you don't say that to someone. Maybe it’s just me but so far he isn’t my favorite character.

“I've been accused of having a death wish but it’s life that I wish for, terribly, shamelessly, on any terms whatsoever."

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At first I thought Princess couldn't remember because she was losing her memory due to her getting old. Perhaps that might ring a little true, but the main reason for her strange behavior is due to her drinking and using drugs the day before. She’s hungover and can’t remember what happened, at first. What a lovely first impression, right??  She is in a vulnerable state and Chance takes advantage of this. Princess Kos is a retired movie star. She was very famous and thriving when she was younger. She is trying to make her big comeback but got insecure and feared negative feedback from everyone. She felt like she was too old for it. Thus, she ran away from her movie, succumbed to the escape of alcohol, drugs, and sex. So she’s been incognito as Princess Kos. She's dependent on an oxygen tank yet she smokes and drinks. Both of which do wonders to your body. I have always wonder how people who care so much about their looks and health will smoke and drink as often as they breathe. Overall, I feel bad for her. Just because she’s getting old, doesn't mean anything is wrong with her. That sucks that society has instilled that mindset in her. I feel like she shouldn’t let something inevitable and trivial get in the way of her passion. It’s pointless to have of all things, that be what stops you from doing what you want to do. I know cinema was different back then than it is right now, where people stay in the cinematic business no matter how old/bad they are. She’s okay of a character so far.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Frost

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What makes a great poem?

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The best types of poems have great metaphors, too. I’m a sucker for that feeling you get when you uncover a mind-blowing metaphor in poetry. Also, I have always loved the way simple phrases in poetry will resonate with me when they encapsulate a complex generality. (All the best ones do! Coincidence??) I think that is fairly important too. Another thing that will make it great is when there is one line in particular that resonates with you more than the rest.
A great poem should eloquently and effectively express an idea. It should make you stop and reread it three more times to appreciate (or analyze) it. It’s crazy the effect words can have. This brings me to another point, diction!! If the poem isn’t throwing around complex words and elaborated allusions only genius, cultured people can recognize, is it really a great poem worthy of your time??


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One great poem I have had the chance to read is "Mr. Flood’s Party" by Edwin Arlington Robinson. (Definitely recommend!!) I think that poem has so much depth depicted through a short, wonderful yet sad narrative. I think it easily falls into all the categories I previously stated.


"Something there is that doesn't love a wall"
When I first read this my first thought was about Trump’s dumb wall. The more I kept reading it, there more that message stayed with me. I really liked how this poem has so much depth. The whole poem is a giant metaphor.
I really enjoyed this poem as it talks about how these people built this wall in order to fix their issues. I like it. The two neighbors only come together this one time to fix the separation they have. The diction works and flows well. “ Good fences make good neighbors.”
This poem even rhymes! (I love when poems rhyme).
The wall is the issue. Its gaps are its flaws. Both natural and human events/error break the wall. So maybe even nature doesn't agree with the wall. This wall keeps things in and/or keeps things out. The narrator’s neighbor wants the wall while the narrator doesn't care for it/want it but does it because the neighbor wants it. The ideas of conformity, the divisions humans will create, and the measure they will take to do so strongly resonated with me.
Overall, the poem is straightforward and the imagery painted a fairly clear picture for us. It was a lot of fun analyzing this poem. I think it was well written and expressed a variety of ideas. Home Burial was a close second.
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“Worst” seems kind of harsh so I am going to say “The Death of The Hired Man” was my least favorite poem. Though I don't think this was my least favorite because it fell into the bad poem category. I didn’t like this poem mostly due to the high expectations I had beforehand. It all had to do with the poem and the first line. These expectations seem silly now as I did not take into account the time period. The title was really interesting but the poem turned out to be about a couple on the farm talking about the hired man, a worker named Silas. It was a little too long too. It had a lot of dialogue which I am not a huge fan of it in poetry. I think with all that dialogue he probably should have just written it as a short story. I think I would have liked this more if it were a short story. Of course, it had the familiar nature and rural setting that Robert Frost has in all of his poems. I didn't really feel anything when reading this that was probably a major factor in why it is so low in my list. I also didn't really relate to it. In all, I just didn't take much from this.

Friday, December 1, 2017

The Stranger pt 2


A strong case the prosecuting lawyer makes is with the way he talks about Meursault’s previous days prior to the event.  This doesn't have anything to do with the crime. It has more to do on trying to figure out the person he is. One by one people are called up to speak on behalf of Meursault. This is where the examination of the crime shifts to a condemnation of Meursault’s strangeness. The prosecutor definitely takes advantage of all of Meursault’s weird behaviors such as him being totally apathetic throughout the funeral of his mother, how he offered a smoke to the guy, how he slept through parts of it, and how he didn't even know how old his mother was.

“He said the truth was that I didn't have a soul and that nothing human, not one of the moral principles that govern men’s hearts, was within my reach… we find [emptiness] in this man, an abyss threatening to swallow up society.”

At the beach, after the fight, Meursault is walking on the beach and, once again,  is complaining about the heat. The reflection of the Arab’s knife reflected the sun into Meursault’s face and it sets him off. He shoots him. Then, Meursault shot the man four more times after that. When he did it he said, “it was like knocking four times on the door of happiness.”
I think if he hadn’t shot him four more times the verdict would have been very unjust. However, because he said this and showed no remorse or tried to defend himself, the verdict is a little more just in that sense. I don't think he should have been sentenced to the guillotine simply because killing someone for killing someone else doesn't seem very productive. Particularly in Meursault’s case as he says we are all going to meet death anyway. But also, I am not really sure what would really deem someone worthy of a fate like the guillotine.

One of the most inconceivable things about Meursault was that, he did not look to the Lord for help throughout the trail. He didn't believe in God at all and constantly refused to see the Father and when he was forced to, he called him “monsieur” instead. The court uses everything peculiar thing about him against him, to portray such a “horrible man.” I think it focuses more on his strange personality as opposed to staying on the topic of the death of the Arab. I think it is fairly normal to dissect the criminal to establish the type of person they are. This is evident when they twist Marie’s words in order to highlight Meursault as different.

Overall, the prosecutor most appeals his argument effectively to the jury through ethos and pathos. He then wraps it up by offering a plausible scenario of what happened.
“I had agreed with Raymond to write the letter in order to lure his mistress and submit her to mistreatment… Raymond had been wounded. I had asked him to give me his gun. I had gone back alone, intending to use it. I had shot the Arab as I had planned… to make sure I had done the job right, I fired four more shots, calmly.” 
It’s pretty convincing.

It would have been worse if he had said what actually made him kill him as that would make him more evil. He also didn't do anything to defend himself.


In the setting and society of this story, I don't believe someone like Meursault could ever have a fair trial.
Everyone deemed him very strange and was even referenced as “Monsieur Antichrist” by the magistrate. Meursault has no faith, empathy, nor any pleasing traits that could have put any doubt in the jury’s mind. Like the question poses, he is so at odds with society’s conventions and morals. By the time Marie, Salamano, and, more importantly, Raymond have something positive to share, no one really takes them into consideration as they already know what they believe. After all that they have heard, they can no longer accept that everything was merely happenstance. Because ridiculous, right? I think the jury was too bias and prejudice to have been able to offer him a fair trial. There are always going prejudices and biases, though. But at least in this decade, jurors wouldn't have really gone to that great of an extent of branding him inhuman for refusing to believe in God nor meet with the chaplain. No one can seem to get past the fact that he is apathetic to these events. Helen Keller referred apathy as one of the greatest evils in humans. I think that is why Meursault is seen as this monster, as the people in this jury have that same belief.
“Not once during the preliminaries hearings did this man show emotion over his heinous offense.”
Even when they read how he is being sentenced to the guillotine, they ask him if he has anything to say and he says, “no.”

“He reminded the court of of my insensitivity; of my ignorance when asked Maman’s age;  of my swim the next day; of the Fernandel movie; and finally of my taking Marie home with me…  He said the truth was that I didn't have a soul and that nothing human, not one of the moral principles that govern men’s hearts, was within my reach… we find [emptiness] in this man, an abyss threatening to swallow up society.”
More than anything I don't think he really deserves much of a fair trial as he didn't have to shoot someone 5 times.
There is a clear distinction. The people of the jury no longer see him as one of him but as a heinous monster. People can’t sympathize him even one bit.

Perhaps this is too different of a comparison but I started to think about how the Boston Marathon Bomber was not just a horrible person for his actions but also because during his trial he was totally indifferent. He barely spoke. Granted there was not much he could say to defend himself. More than anything everyone kept saying he didn’t even show any remorse. (So showing no remorse/being empathetic is still seen as inhumane). What I remember the most is just hearing how above all Dzhokhar Tsarnaev was an apathetic and sociopathic terrorist.  People won’t/didn't care about how he used to be loved by his teachers, classmates, friends, and family, etc, but instead his name will forever make people think of pure, heartless evil. (It really stuck to me so that is why I bring it up and it was all we wrote about in General Paper for a month). It was crazy how he didn't seem to care as his fate was being decided right in front of him. He had to listen to all those victims talk about how they will forever have some sort of reminder of this tragedy (due to loss of limb or family member). Yet the whole time he was impassive and showed no remorse according to everyone. I couldn't fathom how he couldn’t feel the least bit sorry for his actions after hearing all of these testimonies. I don't know why it is that empathy is seen as a universal

This jury consisted of strangers. None of these people truly knew nor understood entirely what Meursault is about. Of all the people that spoke about Meursault, Raymond seems to do him some justice but it’s incredibly too late by the time he speaks. No one really believes him. I think it was all in the way other people talked about the way they seen Meursault. I think a major fact is about perspective. They met him at the worst time ever.



“I blame myself every time for not having paid enough attention to accounts of executions. A man should always take an interest in those things.”
“with the guillotine was the fact that you had no chance at all, none.”
“I remember feeling a little disgusted by him at the time.”

“The thought of being the spectator who comes to watch and then can go and throw up afterwards, a wave of poisoned joy rose in my throat.

The only two things that are certain in life is that you are born and somewhere along the way you die. The thing is you don't know when. Or how. Or why. Unless it gets determined by a jury. This is it for Meursault. He is going to be beheaded and he wants a huge crowd for it. I think he thinks there is this kind of rush, and a possible enjoyment, that people get from this experience. They're also lucky to realize that they're not in that position. Meursault says how they at least have a better chance of escaping the guillotine (but still dying nonetheless). I think he wants a huge crowd at his execution so they can feel that feeling. The more people that go, the more they will never forget it. It will stay with them forever. I also think it is a little sick to have such a bold (i guess) desire. He also might have said this as he wants to distract himself and “make the best of the limited time he has left.” it’s a crazy thing to fantasize. I think with how strange he was, it will surely make headlines for various newspapers and it will gather the attention of many people who will want to go see his public execution.
It is weird because his father went to one and then threw up after it. And now that is the fate his son has been given. It’s not any better. Young Meursault was disgusted his father went to one but now he is going to be up there, possibly making some disgusted for watching one and making others throw up.



The chaplain seriously can't believe how Meursault doesn't look to the lord for forgiveness or help. He said everyone in his place, whether they were religious or not before, they always looked to the lord. Meursault said he won’t call him Father because he isn’t his father. This shows disrespect to religious people and it also shows that Meursault doesn't understand and or know about how/why you refer to him as Father. He never bothered with religion which was not very common during these times. Meursault says, “I may not have been sure about what really did interest me, but I was absolutely sure about what didn't.” and he literally doesn't have time to waste on things that don't interest him. The more the Father talks to him, the more annoyed Meursault was. He keeps saying how it is all the same. We are all going to die. He refuses to embrace the Father. I think when he is yelling at the Priest it isn’t entirely about just not believing in religion but he is just letting up all his pent up anger he has been holding back for years. He finally has released all that frustration out. So in way religion did help him. 


“The utter pointlessness of whatever I was doing there seized me by the throat…

Existential thinking is about the universe being unfathomable; individuals must assume responsibility without knowing what is right or wrong.
Meursault is the epitome of this discussion. He says “there’s people worse off than me.” so there is no point to worry or feel regret for his actions or feel pity for himself. Meursault constantly invalidates his feelings as he is so quick to accept his fate. He doesn't fight it at all in the trial.
The scene with the priest is also relates to existential thinking. Meursault questions the purpose of faith, sin, and death. Ultimately saying that death is inevitable. So why does it all matter? Why make a big deal of one person's death when millions of others did/will too. “Deep down I knew perfectly well that it doesn't matter if you die at thirty or at seventy since in either case other men and women will naturally go on living… in fact nothing could be more clearer.” “only the words yesterday and tomorrow still had any meaning for me.” This shows more of how time is just an illusion. People are the only ones that think in time. We made up the dates and decided to choose a calendar. We are always stuck in the present, so can time really exist?? Meursault is probably on this train of thought more than he ever has before because his time is running out. He is in jail and is trying to make light of his fate.